One Moment in Time

Finding balance in life is key to thriving. Likened to the Lotus we too need all four elements to thrive. If all the elements are not present or are working in a diminished capacity it affects our state of” Being, ” our growth and our light.

The lotus, a life form of magnificent beauty, radiating it’s light out for all the world to see. Thriving in perfect conditions of the four elements that sustain all life in perfect balance, water, soil, sun, and air. It flourishes and graces us with its glorious presence.

Finding the balance in your life is the key, the right balance to thrive, to flourish, to BE

Awakening, Passion and Joy Lotus photographs courtesy of Lily Mikulcic Sunrises and Roses

Dawning

The Lotus, my inspiration in Thailand. You see it everywhere, most homes and businesses have a Lotus plant outside their premises. It is the flower of the Kingdom, yet it is not truly seen, in the midst of a people, it goes unnoticed, yet by the sages and monks, it is well known and believed.

I had a Lotus in a lovely pot outside the house I lived in, the place I called home. It taught me much about growth and the elements of our lives. The power to change our lives lies within each of us. The elements create conditions around us, we are part of the elements too and we have the power to choose the elements that create a balanced dynamic to flourish and thrive in. We are fine-tuning each day, stepping closer to the perfect balance with every failure and success….lighting the way.

Being true to yourself

Living in Thailand seemed the perfect lifestyle, wonderful weather, lovely people, financially viable, with someone who professed wanted to spend the rest of his life me. It didn’t work out that way at all. I didn’t see it coming yet I had to make a choice, I had no time to think!

Failure is a stepping stone, it’s me fine tuning my life, standing alone, it’s me flying free, sometimes falling to my knees, realizing, waking up and living my greatest dreams.

By Zoey Mikulcic

Should I go or should I stay? The impact of that decision at that moment was monumental. My mind turned to fear and automatically took me down the path of what material loss I will incur if I make the decision to follow my heart.

What will people think? How will I look? I have nothing as I will have to leave all my material possessions behind. What will I do? How will I survive? We were in an on and off relationship for the past nine years and now he was throwing me out.

Finding my voice

He was intoxicated and we had been arguing for two hours after he had arrived home from being out at a bar for the entire afternoon. He came home to take me and my daughter and her girlfriend out for the rest of the night. The girls were leaving around lunchtime as they had a flight booked to Phuket and we were supposed to be dropping them off at the airport. I knew if we went out it would be a long night and there would be trouble.

Finding my path forward

He told me that I am embarrassing him. He kept repeating himself and looking at the time. It was passing by and he was anxious to get back to the bar. Saying no was unacceptable to him and after two hours of repeating himself, he unlocked all the doors to the house (yes all the doors were locked with padlocks and there were bars on all the windows and all the doors.

I couldn’t breathe, it felt like my heart had stopped. Living like this had become the norm, constantly walking on eggshells, being unheard and unseen. I realised I couldn’t do it anymore. At that moment I knew in my heart, that I had to leave. There was no need to think about it.

Dawning of joy

I loved this man, and I knew he would not change. I couldn’t be with him anymore. The choice I made was to leave, I got dressed, packed my two small suitcases with some clothes and a few personal items, told my daughter and girlfriend to pack their things.

He said, “you can go back to work now”. I replied, “thank you for everything and goodbye”. There was nothing I wanted to say. I felt everything that was we had been through was leading up to this moment. He asked “are you sure you want to do this? ” I won’t take you back again”. I said “yeah I’m sure.

Home is where the heart is.

It was an “Aha” moment. As I walked I started to feel this peace within me, a silence, a feeling of serenity. I had no other words to say and I left the house with my two suitcases, my daughter and her girlfriend. As we walked down the road there were no words exchanged between us. We just looked at each other with “what just happened?”look on our faces. There were no more tears to cry, no more long drawn out conversations that went around in circles. There was no more, something had shifted within me. This was the best thing I could have done for myself.

“Finding the balance is the key, to flourish, to thrive, to be.” This was my new mantra to guide me into the next chapter of my life. It was time to look after myself and stop caring what other people think. It was time to be true to me.

I know something Now. Something liberating and powerful. I felt like Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz. Saying “No” was what I found difficult to do all my life. I couldn’t say “Yes” to me and no to someone else. I found my voice, it was always there, covered by the fear that I would not be loved if I said “No” Like Dorothy I came home to myself, the power was always within me all that happened was that I chose to unlock the energetic gate, saying “No” was the key.

The feeling of freedom

As I walked I felt lighter and lighter. My whole being felt freedom and joy beyond words. In my life, I had never had such a feeling. A weight had been lifted. I felt peace within me, the chaotic feelings were gone. It felt good to breathe freely. I was walking on air, a smile on my face and tears of joy filled my eyes. I had taken back the power I had given away.

Through the years of being in this relationship, I had been giving away my power. The threats and abuse kept me under his control and I didn’t recognize the unhealthy dynamic I was living in. Every action I had taken was saying “take some more, keep taking”. I was faced with a decision at that moment and saying “No” liberated my soul, it awakened a silent power within, a power I thought I never had.

Letting go in Love

I realized that I couldn’t make someone happy no matter how hard I tried, no matter how much material wealth I gave, how much money I brought into the relationship, or how much love I gave. Sometimes it’s more loving to let go.

Deep within us, within the soul of each one of us, is our Divinity. We are all Divine beings, and it was this knowledge, this love for the divine being within him that I could feel. With great compassion, I bless the time we shared, the experiences we created and take the knowledge with me into the next chapter of my life.

As a bud slowly becomes a flower blooming with splendor, we too are slowly changing and growing into splendorous beings.

All around our world we are connecting and sharing our experiences.We are all part of the one source, an individual spark of light shining out to the world our own unique perspective, contributing to the creation of the ever-expanding Universe.

We are just starting to see.

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They can only be felt with the Heart.”

Helen Keller

The majority of the photographs on Dawning of Joy are taken by Zoey Mikulcic and are original photographs, not to be copied or used.

Some photographs are stock images. All photographs taken by Zoey Mikulcic are the sole property of Zoey Mikulcic and are subject to Copyright.

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